Brad Pitt has compared his split from Angelina Jolie to 'a death', admitting that his heavy drinking helped ruin his marriage.
In Brad’s first interview since the shocking separation, Brad revealed to GQ Magazine that he is sober and in therapy, and says his family has been 'ripped apart.'
He said, 'I hit the lottery and I still would waste my time on those hollow pursuits.'He says that the split was 'self-inflicted' and that he has stopped drinking since the split.Pitt says he can’t remember a day since he got out of college when he wasn’t boozing or smoking a spliff.
He said, 'Truthfully I could drink a Russian under the table with his own vodka. I was a professional. I was good. I was boozing too much… And I’m really happy it’s been half a year now, which is bittersweet, but I’ve got my feelings in my fingertips again… I mean, we have a winery. I enjoy wine very, very much, but I just ran it to the ground. I had to step away for a minute.'
Besides drinking, Brad says that he spent too much time away from his children working on films.
He said, 'I say that as someone who's let the work take me away. Kids are so delicate. They absorb everything. They need to have their hand held and things explained. They need to be listened to. When I get in that busy work mode, I'm not hearing. I want to be better at that.'
As for his movie career, Brad said, “I don't really think of myself much as an actor anymore. It takes up so little of my year and my focus. Film feels like a cheap pass for me, as a way to get at those hard feelings. It doesn't work anymore, especially being a dad... I wish I could just change my name."
He says that after Angelina filed for divorce, he was too devastated to return to his home in Beverly Hills andslept on a friend's floor for six weeks as he tried to cope with the loss of his relationship and family home life.
The former couple recently agreed to resolve their divorce and custody dispute in private.